I am so tired, mentally.


I don't get rewarded for shit I've done well.
I don't get credit for things I've been of help of, for improvements that I've made.


Why?
Because I'm in this position where I can't quit.
I can only suck it up and take it all in.

No matter how fucking good I try to do it, it won't be enough.
It NEVER WILL BE.
People will only ask for more, and more, and more.
Until I get so drained out and people will just throw me aside and start condemning me for shit I don't do well.


You say I didn't prepare for the distribution.
I did. I fucking did.
The routing was done. I prepared the necessary documentations for it. I passed it to C.
I even clearly explained to him how the job has to be done. Every single thing. It was so straightforward.
And then, bam. Driver wasn't briefed. And now, my fault. Again.
Every single thing boils down to me.


HAHAHAHAHAHA. THIS SHIT IS BANANA.