I don't deserve it. I don't deserve anything.
I was overconfident. Overconfident that I would still be able to wake up on my own after sleeping late because I just wanted to have fun; despite being so very tired. I was too confident. Confident that I would be able to wake up on time. I should have known better.

What happened this morning was a disaster and I hope never to have to go through this again.

Yesterday, there were issues with the truck. But I was out and didn't see the text until late. It was only until 5+ 6 that I got back to the office and then notified that they weren't able to send the truck to the workshop. After sourcing and probably a million phone calls, we managed to get a replacement.

Called customer but she didn't pick up. Then texted her. She said she was preparing for breakfast - I swear I thought she mean breakfast, but no, she actually meant break fast. So I told her we needed to tow the truck back and she said she will call me earlier and that we needed to replace another truck for them. So I texted her saying, "We will tow truck aaway and send a replacement truck with class 4 driver as the truck is with tailgate. Blablablablabla". And she replied saying, "I will get back to you soonest".

8.10am, she texted saying they will send in the truck at 12noon and "need the truck back ssame day regardless what time your workshop finish it". I admit, it was my fault, because had I woken up on time, I would have seen this and all other drama would have been avoided.

I woke up at 9.47am. And then made phone calls. Mom said that they went down to customer's place and the truck was not there. I call customer straight and she said that they have driven it away to do deliveries. I explained to her that the vehicle was not in a condition to drive, that was why we needed to tow it away immediately, and that was why we gave her a replacement truck and driver. She then said that she had texted in the morning and I told her that I was actually on half day MC. Sorry I lied. But I had to. And then she blatantly went on to say that we didn't inform her that we were going to tow the truck away. I swear my voice was shaking because I was really upset. The conversation was a lot longer than above and I was getting so angry. How can she not be concerned of her fellow colleague's life? How can anyone even be so oblivious to someone else's life? His life is equally as important as yours. I then told her that I was actually really really worried and concerned because the vehicle was not in condition to be driven and it was very dangerous for the driver as overheating may ultimately cause the engine to go up in flames. She didn't sound the least bit worried. I asked her where the driver was and she said she didn't know, told her to call and she said, "okay I check with Sharon". What the fuck. Do you not have the driver's contact number even? Absurd. Ridiculously absurd. What do you mean by you need to "check with Sharon"? LOL.

I don't know how your company functions but I don't think you all are communicating enough. Same for the previous guy in charge. He was equally clueless every time something happened. And I had to be the one helping to call his drivers and all. Some times I wonder if I even work for you. Something happened, you're unable to tell me what exactly happened, where your driver is. I really don't know how you guys function as a team.

And you are demanding as shit, don't get me wrong. You probably think that you've been very courteous with all your "please", "thank you", blablabla. But honestly, no. YOU ARE JUST A DEMANDING HUMAN BEING WHO DOESN'T KNOW WHAT SHE'S DOING AND ARE JUST TRYING TO LOOK GOOD IN FRONT OF YOUR BOSS.

But ultimately, it was my fault. I put his life in danger. Because I went out to play, and couldn't wake up on time. It is my fault. I shouldn't have, but I did. If anything have had happened, I don't know how I'll even be able to make up for it. It was my fault. If I hadn't woken up late, I would have been able to follow up with Z. Or if I had called you directly last night instead of going through Z, it wouldn't have been in as much danger.