I just spoke to a guy who was coming up with a mobile app with his friends.
Kinda a legit company thing.

And I realized, I miss coding.
I miss it so much.

When he spoke of technical terms, my heart skipped a beat.
Oh, how I wish to be sitting here typing those codes as quickly as I'm typing this post.
Feeling so expertized in what I have been doing the past 5 years.

Oh, right!
Which reminds me WHY I actually miss it that much - I have been doing programming for the PAST F-I-V-E YEARS.

It explains. Suddenly schooling is out of my life, so is programming.
That explains the emptiness inside.
The hollow feeling that makes me feel so vulnerable, stupid and green-horned.

I feel like I don't know what I'm doing,
I don't know what I'm supposed to be thinking.

I miss you, codes.

if (Icouldturnbacktime = true)
{
Work even harder and do even more for my projects;
Appreciate the time I spent doing programming even more than I already did;
//But I feel I put in 99% of hard work, sweat and tears into all my projects;
//Even though the designs != great, I still did what I did best;
//I also enjoyed doing EVERY SINGLE project I have done.
}

else
{
this.now;
//Reality.
}