Sometimes I don't understand at all what I'm doing.

In the past, I wasn't someone which will let you walk over me.
I was never the type of girl who will take humiliations and still keep quiet.
I was the type of girl who will fuck you upside down once you stepped on my tail.
I was the type of girl who will scream and yell at you if you went overboard.

But now,
I'm that girl,
who lets you walk a little bit over me.
I'm that girl,
who will keep quiet even though I am at a disadvantage.
I'm that girl,
who will do something despite the fact that I don't want to.


I'm still as mood swing as ever,
get irritated whenever it's scorching hot.
I still get irritated over little things,
but not say anything now.
I'm still sensitive,
and complain alot, but do nothing.

I realise that since I've been into Poly,
I've been tolerating and tolerating,
so screw it.
Why am I even talking about this? -.-

Now,
I'm nothing.

I've come to realise,
that actually I don't earn much respect.


P/s: A fucking big cockroach flew into the living room.
Me & Nana ran up to 2nd floor, so did it.
Fuck!