Sorry, but I can't seem to erase that thing in my mind.
I'm trying my hardest to let is cease from my mind.
But it's not.
I'm trying my bestest, to face the truth, and not to look back at the past.
But it's still so fresh in my mind.

I can reluctantly still tell you in details what happened that evening.
But I will not.


Although I seem okay.
But to say the truth, I fucking hate Blackies those kind of people now.
I'm sorry, I don't mean to be racist.
You know I've never ever been one.
I've never been the racist one.
I've never liked being racist.
I've got Indian friends - Sasi, and malay friends - Aini, Shala, Amani, Zaf, ... (L)
But I'm sorry.

Everytime, I see those bangala look-alikes, that incident just pops into my mind.
It keeps repeating,
over and over again.
Sometimes when I close my eyes before I sleep,
I suddenly recall myself walking down that staircase again.
And it replays over again, so realistic.

Nearly falling down at the first step,
I saw a cast of shadow.
Caught a glimpse of his face, because I was being me - nosy.
Turned back and slowly walked down the mountain of steps,
unlike Cinderella, I was walking down real slowly so that I wouldn't fall.
That, has caused the distance between me & that FF.
Suddenly, he stopped.
I thought he was going to go into the building,
because the lights were still lit up.
But no, he wasn't.
He was just standing there, doing something.
And I saw it, with my own eyes.
I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs.
I wanted to call the police.
I wanted to take capture pictures of him, and upload into youtube,
or take a video, and show it to the world, since he was so proud of it.
But what could I do?
I was the only one there.
The path was long, and dimly wit.
Panic-striken, I could only run away.
I dialed for JingKai, and started to sprint off.
I didn't really sprint, I fastened my pace.
Even though my feet kind of hurt,
I know that I could still run.

If only I wore heels the other day.
I could have took it out,
and like, just hit him, there, real hard.
Like I was killing a cockroach.